Hope.... When everything else fails.!!!
Morgan Freeman’s character in the movie
“The Shawshank Redemption” serves 30 years in the prison…and at a point says.. “I
don’t know where all those years went by…and there is nothing left except hope..”
30 years is almost the full lifetime of
us who are reading this blog… Just imagine someone who is confined inside a
small room for that many years..and still has hope… a hope to feel free..to
breathe and to live…atleast for a tiny moment before you die..!!
Early 1980’s..my mom would get
up..clean the mud house we lived in..Clean the cow dung..Walk upto a mile to
the river to wash clothes..carrying me by her side…drag herself back to the
house to cook food…go to the field to help rest of the family to make sure the
crop this year yields better.. so that we are alive for the next year,,… With no future to get out of the poverty..with
2 kids in front of her…all she did was Hope…!! She hoped that Dad and she could
manage some job… her kids would go to some school and study..and hoped that there would be a day when she can
feed us all three times..a proper meal..wear proper clothes..!!
If today, I am living the life of my
dreams…it’s because my mom always believed in her dream… She worked on it…she
pushed herself and the family out of the jungles..to come settle in the town…found
a job for 300 rupees a month… found four walls to rent out..feed us and cover
us with a set of uniform to send us to school..and always Hoped..!! she believed
that there would be a day..where she will see her kids happy and content..!
like everyone else..!
Had she lost hope those years…I wouldn’t
have been alive today… Had she lost hope and given up..I would not live like a prince
today..,. Had she not taught me to hope… I wouldn’t be breathing happily
today..!
So..here
I am… an Optimist..! for those who know me really well…you know how much I
dream…( yes, I can hear Jo saying that’s because I sleep a lot..where else can
one dream :-)
In School… I hoped nobody would talk to
me in English…J
for I was sure they would forget theirs the moment I opened my mouth…I hoped I
never find a snake when I walked alone…for
I was and I am petrified by that…I hoped that the beautiful Tara teacher would
marry me, although I was in third standard,.. ( @ Harsha : I will never forget
you bullied me with this till 6th standard..I was very scared you
would tell her )
Then slowly, as you grow bigger, the
needs become bigger .. Like my favorite Buddha says, “Never lose hope…! Keep working
on it..for one day..you will get what you really want… !”..but he also says..the more you crave for.. the
more you will feel sad in life…:-)
so beware!
Don’t aim for a girl friend..then you
start hoping to marry her..! Don’t aim
for a marriage..then you start craving for kids…! Don’t aim for the kids..for then you start
craving for the best school.. Don’t aim for a big house..then you will aim for
competing on your interiors to your neighbour’s..! Don’t aim for the best car
in town.. soon you will find a better one in the next parking lot.!
These days, I have started to hope nothing
beyond a Day…
I hope for a day where you encouraged
everyone at work to give their best… a day when you said thanks to the unknown guard who helps you house to
be safe …a day when you called a long lost friend and surprised!..for a day
when you went to parents and give them a big hug and a kiss.. may be a day
where you play a lot and sweat like crazy and feel young…I crave for a day on
the highway in my car.. I crave for a day where I can relax alone with loud
music… I crave for a day when I actually can finish a book in a day…I crave for a session of blissful laughter with friends… a
day to spend with kids including my little sister…and I crave to end the day with
my love…to go to sleep and drown into some more dreams feeling her all around
me..:-)
Simple things like this have helped me
to come back to life strongly..it’s a new life that I am discovering and I am
loving it..!!!…and probably that’s why I thought I should blog this…Beware…it might
not work for everyone…..may be there is still fun in craving for a bigger house…a
better job…a better school for kids.. a better salary package.. a girlfriend…
craving to marry her.…:-) May be, this is not the age to hope for simpler things…for the fear of losing in
the rat race… may be its better to put in that extra hours at work..to lose out
on friends and family time to become rich and make some extra bucks…may be this
is the age to earn big and save it for the days down our life after 50th
Birthday…but like my darling Katrina Kaif says in ZNMD… what’s the guarantee
that we will live till then…?
Today has been a very good day… but
tomorrow will be better! And I hope ..this last line will repeat everyday for
the rest of my life…!!!!
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